The Diary of Anaïs Nin, 1955–1966

I think that what I am discovering is that the great things are not those we plan on but those which simply happen; and so I feel, at times like this, that my life is arranged too rigidly, as if I were living according to some subconscious and partly conscious plan that ruled out certain realms of wonder and magnificence.

Our desire to live everything out will always meet with the obstacle of guilt.

No reviews in Los Angeles Times. No review of Miller Letters in Time magazine, which makes it a practice to assassinate Henry and to ignore me.

After the negative letters from Random House, Putnam, and Morrow, Alan Swallow spoke to Hiram Haydn of Harcourt Brace. I was in New York, and Gunther gave a cocktail party. It. was at this party that Peter Israel definitely turned down the diary and Hiram Haydn said to me: “I love it. I will do it.” How I loved his directness and conviction. We talked. We had met before. He had me talk to his students at the New School. He has a daughter and he said something about the father-daughter relationship moving him deeply in the diary.